Jason Liew

 

   

在爱情白皮书里

恍然发现书里少了一页……

 

这“失页”

使你的阅读停顿

这一页的失去

让你对剧情猜疑

这一个人的离去

让你对感情质疑。

 

有人会犹豫停住

有人会彷徨无助

有人会尝试弥补

跳过去下一页找眉目

去继续读这有缺页的书。

 

而这类似经历的人物

他们难免会尝试往前页翻读

来试着连接失页后的事故。

他们难免会往事回顾

来试着找一个理由把自己说服。

 

书页脱出，

说明一本被翻阅过的书。

书页脱出，

证明一条曾经付出过的感情路。

书页脱出，

是我那改不掉的疏忽？

是你的心荒芜得太仓促？

还是我们的爱原本就是错误的全部？

 

书页脱出，

不怪作者设局的残酷

也难怪读者被情节束缚。

 

书页脱出，

是我那不在乎的粗鲁？

是那累积的恶劣态度？

还是你那无心的辜负？

 

书页脱出，

我不再用自毁来写痛苦回忆录。

我不再用自责来对自己报复。

 

书页脱出，

谢谢过去的用心阅读。

谢谢曾经的细心照顾。

书页脱出，

成全你的角色追逐。

成为我的戏剧前度。

 

书页脱出，

我不否认我的错误。

书页脱出，

我不否定我们曾经的相互。

书页脱出，

我不因你的结束而痛哭

我因我们的真心付出

而学会庆幸满足。

 

书页脱出，

我学会看那遗失后的页数。

书页脱出，

我学会走那没有你之后的……

每一步。

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爱情是…

头发。

经过岁月的洗礼

它会慢慢变少

有人极力掩饰

有人尝试挽救

有人默默接受

有人昂然剃去。

 

爱情是…

眼睛。

它可能看尽了全世界

看尽世态炎凉

看尽人间冷暖

但是它

永远无法看清

身边最靠近的那一个人

永远无法看到

在鼻梁旁边的另一颗眼睛。

 

爱情是…

鼻子。

它

可能是你最容易忘掉的东西

因为它永远都是

无声无息地在支持你的生命

因为这个人往往都是

无怨无悔地在守护你的人生。

 

爱情是…

耳朵。

它喜欢听悦耳的声音。

但是

往往最动听的音乐

都是科技加工合成的

往往最动人的甜言蜜语

都是演技与口才造成的。

 

爱情是…

嘴巴。

它是最善于表达情绪的东西。

可是

每一个笑声背后，

不一定有一个开心的人。

但是每一段幸福背后，

肯定有不为人知的痛处。

 

爱情是…

牙齿。

它是最坚固可靠的东西

他是伴你过一生的伴侣。

它经得起高温低压，

他经得起风风雨雨。

但是难免

有几颗会坏去

有几位得离去。

而且往往事情的导因

不尽是突然的撞击

不仅是偶然的外遇

而是历经酸碱腐蚀的牙龈

而是受尽煎熬委屈的内心。

 

爱情是…

左右手。

我们总是想去牵另外一双手

外面的世界永远是那么的诱人

但是

真正始终不离不弃的

真正永远相补相成的

不是那遥不可及的那双手

而是那近在眼前的那个人。

 

爱情是…

双脚。

每人都有一双

每人会有一位

它承受你一身的重量

他承担你一生的重负

伴你走过那无常的人生路

陪你走过这无悔的感情路。

 

来自Perth的想念

给Melbourne的你

我爱你

犹如上述一样

爱你的一身

也爱你的一生。

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When miracle happens,

Christians will say “Oh, Jesus!”

Buddhists will say “Oh, Buddha!”

Muslims will say “Oh, Allah!”

Communists will say “Oh, Party leader!”

Atheist will say “Oh, Me!”

To a certain extent,

don’t we all believe that someone,

that “someone” can even be yourself,

is looking after your life,

is determining your destiny

is walking with you in this long journey of life?

I’m not here to comment any aforementioned choice of faith,

but to share some thoughts about living by faith.

One funny thing about this world is

it just takes 1 textbook-illustrated scientific experiment 

to make most people to believe in gravity force.

But it takes more than 1 billion “biologically alive” people’s life-changing real stories

to make some people to slightly believe in supernatural force.

Although you can see neither of those forces.

Someone says this is something to do with immediacy.

When you let go a glass in hand,

it falls and breaks immediately.

When you pray to God

it seems that you don’t get reply or rescue “right away”.

Someone says this is something to do with consistency.

A glass hits ground,

it breaks, every time.

A prayer in despair

it seems to get answered, sometimes?

Don’t you agree the main problem about immediacy 

is the difference in relativity?

According to your average life span of 80 years,

when your life falls apart,

how “immediate” reply should be defined as immediate?

Now? Tomorrow? Next Year? Next Decade?

And now,

turn your scope

to a falling glass with average life span of 2 seconds…

Perhaps now

we all do have a fairer opinion on immediacy.

Try to flashback through your life

by hold tight to your faith (in whatever name)

Didn’t your life somehow turn out to be better over time?

Having a consensus on immediacy.

some of us might be still questioning about consistency.

Glass falls,

we always get broken pieces.

Prayer delivers

we don’t always get what we asked for.

Yes, we don’t.

But, isn’t life great

because we don’t always get what we asked for?

And how should we judge that

what is the best

to be delivered to who

at where

by when?

Sometimes,

we say

this is God’s best plan,

this is fate,

this is Fengshui,

this is our inner self,

that even

we, as normal human being

don’t have complete knowledge of.

It is quite irrelevant which name of faith you choose from above,

but the main idea holds:

Human beings are but short-sighted living creatures.

We don’t foresee.

What if you prayed for finding an apartment of $1500 rental,

securing a financially viable home in a new city?

But God didn’t give you right away

instead

He got you a career promotion

and you are now easily paying $2000

for a beautiful apartment monthly?

Could we say God denied your initial prayer?

Or would you claim, “that’s nothing about Him, it’s ME, ME and ME.”?

Even a maid will not necessarily clean your kitchen

in the exact way you asked.

Demanding our God, our Fate, our Fengshui, or our Party Leader

to deliver exact whatever being asked for,

isn’t that absurd?

Think again.

Don’t things just turn out to be just fine or even better?

eventhough it is never ever foreseeable to be part of our plans, anyway.

Perhaps life is a journey.

A journey with detours,

not to stop us at the crossroads

but to challenge us to live by faith, not by sight.

A journey with fall-behind and far-ahead,

not to sorry for those that we have  to forgo,

but to thanks for those that never let go.

A journey of no return,

not to be upset for the limited time span,

but to be glad for the unlimited possibilities that it offers.

And nevertheless,

Life is always a better journey

when you know you are not walking alone.

This post is especially dedicated to Jia Heng and Adelene,

my girlfriend, my family and You.

Yes, You too

You, the one that reading this.

Happy Winter Break,

and have a nice holiday!

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